so, I went to go to the convenient store just to get some coffee, but it ended up being something, I felt compelled to drive around... like I was looking for something or waiting for some epiphany, and I just started thinking what's wrong with me lately, I mean I know what it is but is that really all it is?... could one girl really make me feel this way about myself and this unsatisfied with her absence? I don't know and whatever I was looking for never showed itself... I drove past old friends' houses and old hangouts, but nothing came to me... I am just not where I want to be right now and I feel something in me stirring, I don't know what it is but hopefully whatever it brings about places me somewhere better than here.